I don’t think that I binge.
How can I be bulimic if I don’t binge?
I am ill, but the labels don’t quite fit as nicely as they used to.
I eat breakfast.
I am not sick.
I eat lunch.
I am sick.
I eat dinner.
I am sick.
I allow myself a supper of sorts.
I know my limits.
My portion size for lunch and dinner is large. I drink a pint of water alongside my meal.
Then I go to the bathroom.
I lock the door.
I turn on the tap.
I put my fingers into my mouth and I make myself sick.
I have a routine.
But this routine has to be followed. Has to be.
I can not eat out.
I can not eat with others.
I am trapping myself and my family.
I am tired again today.
Today I have been sick twice.
I must be a bulimic who does not binge.
I kind of think that the sicking is an expression.
I am hiding behind being sick.
I have to figure out what I am hiding from.
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